Venturing out

A few years ago when I began scrapbooking, I picked up an embellisment with a quote on it that I really liked. I didn't know how or when I would ever use it, but I just wanted to have it. Last night as I reviewed my day, this quote popped into my head. It summed it up perfectly:

"The only way of discovering the limits of the possible is to venture a little way past them into the impossible." - Arthur C. Clarke

Here is how it went. Mike had to leave a little before six in the morning to help with the boy scout/young men fundraiser. This meant I was up early taking care of the boys. Now, I have an amazing husband that gets up every morning with the boys so I can sleep a little longer...I am not a morning person though I wish I were. But, I did it, and I didn't even get my day-long I-got-up-too-early headeache.
Then Mike came home and we all got ready for the day. He headed out again to observe/train to do assessments in Spanish. My plan for the day was the Presidents Day Sale at RC Willey. We need a mattress for Evan and since we are getting our tax refund and Evan hates his crib, I thought this was the perfect chance. It was the normal outing with the boys - me doing my thing interupted every few seconds to give the boys fruit snacks, crackers, make one of them stop hitting the other, carry Evan when he was screaming, etc. They were actually doing well and I found a great deal on a great mattress. So I got to the line to pay. When I noticed that I couldn't even begin to see the cashiers, I got worried. I honestly thought, "there is no way I can stand in this line with these boys for that long...really, I can't." But I did it. After a little over an hour of waiting in line, we made it out. I was completely exhausted from keeping the boys happy, in one place and out of trouble. (as an aside, don't take a toy that comes apart in a way that your kids can't put back together on their own if you are going to be somewhere for a long time...)
Then Mike got home late so I improvised for dinner (he was going to grill steaks but ran out of time) and then he was out again to take down the flags he had put up earlier for the fundraiser. And though every muscle in my body was screaming for collapse, I did it.

I kind of feel like my days are more ways for me to realize what I can do. Being a stay-at-home mom is hard...really hard sometimes. Much more so than I thought it would be. I know that some of that is the personalities my kids were blessed with. I wouldn't change them, but they require a lot to keep up with them physically and emotionally. But I do it...every day. Even those days when Mike doesn't come home until after the boys are in bed. Sometimes I start those days thinking that there is no way I can do it, but I do. I am not always as graceful as I would like, but I do it. I have to. My body aches at the end of each day, but it is stronger than ever. When pushed further than usual, it can do it.

I also thought of all the other ways that this applies to our lives. What about spiritually. When we think that we may never be able to get over something, become something, forgive something, we can. A lot of that comes with help from our Heavenly Father who gives us of His strength to make us capable to do the seemingly impossible.

I am so excited right now as well because I get to be a part of the orchestra for a production being put on by a stake in Henderson - Savior of the World. I am so nervous though that I will not be able to perform. Once again I am going to step out past what I think is possible and see what happens. I really hope that I will able to do it. Maybe if I rely on some added strength, confindence and courage, I will be able to do more than I would be able to on my own.