So what am I thinking about today....
A little bit ago I banished the boys to their room to pick up their books they threw all over last night when they were "sleeping." This meant quiet time with Colette. I layed down with her on my bed and we cuddled, smiled at each other and rested. It was lovely. I miss being able to do that all the time and I feel guilty sometimes, thinking that just because she is a third child, she should still get as much attention as the others at this stage. I feel it especially when she is fussing and I finally get to her and she immediately calms down and smiles and coos. All she wants is a little Mama attention. And oh, I love her smiles! They are so genuine.
But, she is the third. That means there are two crazy, hyper boys with constant demands for juice and diaper changes and lunch and play time... And so I can't give all my time to my sweet baby girl. But she will be okay, I know, and soon she will be running around as one of those crazy kids with tons of demands. I look forward to it and dread her growing so fast at the same time. So I will enjoy the brief moments of quiet with her now while she is still so little.
And maybe someday soon I will get better at juggling three kids...
(and the boys are still downstairs "cleaning", an hour later. I may get more quiet time with Colette when she wakes up at the rate they are going!)
